Vacuosity

Both ends

Too much of anything is not a good thing. For me, today, it's too much time indoors, too much work on Julia's course components, too much baby time, and too much caffeine.

I love the time with Jaime; it's good for both of us, but it's exhausting and not very stimulating. Well, if it's stimulation you're after, why not enjoy a few hours pouring over the marketing component of the business plan? Thanks, I'd rather not. Oh, but you must! Yes, I must; it is partly my business after all, and I need to make sure it's done well. Obsess much?

Yes, actually, but it's not even that. It's just that it's really too much work for one person to do in the few, short weeks we have to complete it. Also, this sort of thing is not Julia's strong point. She's great at compiling data, then doing a 'brain dump' to get things mostly in the right places, but, by her own admission, needs someone to come along afterwards and fine-tune it. Sometimes more than fine-tune; rewrite. And spending four hours of my Saturday working on it was not what I had planned.

Right now, the girls are at a movie with Caleb. Jaimeson, who had been sleeping, has woken up and now won't let me put her down. She kept waking up to check if I was still there. Leaving her alone the first time was a dirty trick she won't let me play again. Now she is sitting happily at the keyboard, smacking away, delighted at the unpredictable flashings on the screen that result. She very nearly lost this post. As I lean back in my chair, this view is one I won't soon forget: Jaimeson's sturdy silhouette, complete with toussled bed-head, framed by the bright blue outline of the screen. She sits with her back ramrod straight and is terribly proud of herself.

Why am I at home while the girls are out with some guy we've really only just met? Well, Caleb's a good guy; the girl's are safe with him. And after hours of straight baby, then hours of straight biz plan work, I was too burnt and too grumpy to go anywhere.

That's that. End of day. There are only four more weeks of Julia's classes, which is a great relief. I think every one of us in the house who can talk expressed some degree of hatred for the work we're doing right now. It's oppressive. After that, we'll be able to spent time on the sort of work we're anxious to get to, setting up the office, buying equipment, and going after clients. I'm sure that in retrospect it will all seem worthwhile, I'm also sure that it will not seem so until it can be viewed retrospectively.

posted by David @ 12:58 a.m.